Again and Again.,Never Ending I Guess..

 First of all, i want to say i do care him so much, cherish him, wanting him...but then i just thinking, does he really look me? does he feel like my feeling toward him?

salah gw apa sih??sampe-sampe segitunya dia ke gw..kalo emang gw banyak salah ke dia gw udah selalu n selalu minta maaf..am i wrong to have this feeling??

am i really has done sumthin' REALLY wrong??

apa itu cowok gak bisa mikir ya?

udah berapa banyak gw berkorban buat dia, tapi yang dia lakuin tetep aja ngambang, gak jelas..

gw bener- bener bingung mau dia apa, gw udah bersabar dari lama tapi kenapa dia tetep gak bisa ngeliat gw apa adanya sih??dia yang ngasih gw harapan tapi dia juga yang ngrampas itu...gw cuma pengen dia bener-bener ngliat gw, ketulusan gw..

sumpah, gw cuma minta kejelasan dia aja..tapi yg gw dapet malah ke-TIDAK jelasan dia yang kalo gw pikir-pikir bakal menjadi-jadi, gw pengen nangis tapi gw gak bisa..

I'm stupid? maybe i'm really stupid, but i can't helped it!! what am i supposed to do??

gw bener-bener pengen ilangin semua rasa yang ada di hati gw, tapi gimana caranya??ikhlas?gw udah berkali-kali lepasin dia, relain dia pergi, but why he ALWAYS came back??what for?to make me like a SHIT??

GOD, gw udah gak tau lagi, berapa lama gw musti bersabar..gw cuma gak habis pikir, apa sebenernya yang dia pengen??kenapa selaluuuuu gw yang harus bersabar???

GOD, skarang gw udah gak bisa apa-apa, gw udah sangat-sangat bersabar dari dulu sampe sekarang, gw cuma minta keJELAS an aj, susah nyaaa udah kaya' naklulin dunia, i want to give up..but my heart tells me to keep strong. Walaupun jawaban yang gw tunggu gak sesuai yang gw mau, tetep aja hati gw pengen teruuuuus lanjuuut padahal otak gw berkata sebaliknya..entah gw setia apa bodoh, but i can't help this feeling!!!!

I just REALLY need a miracle for this..

Love isn't about LOVING someone PERFECT, But LOVE is LOVING someone PERFECTLY .

Feeling sumthin' Strange..

Well i just wanna share sumthin' 'bout my feelings, i don't know how i deal with my feeling, i know it's sound terrible 'cuz i had already feel it about 3 times but i still don't get it :(

At first i thought i'm okay, 'cuz I've been broken heart for 2 months..but then, about a week ago, i had this strange feelings, well not strange actually, it's

just.. i don't know i think i'm still in love with him (i know it's hard to accept)

but that makes me more confuse, 'cuz in other hand i think i'm just still in

awkward position (which is kinda bit uncomfortable being alone).

And because of that i'm so confuse right now, i don't know what i want. Well at first i want him to disappear from my life, but then i'm kinda bit miss him..

and now, when i'm re- add his BB pin, i just thought it was a bad, really bad idea, but what can i do? he already approve it.

I still remember what my friend said to me, that i'm still cared for him. But now i just..i think communicate with him was really bad idea..

GOD, i don't know what to do now, i now i miss him but i don't want him to know my feelings 'cuz i know he doesn't have same feeling like me..

i now he was already erased his feeling since we broke up, but oh God i don't know what i'm gonna do now..just wanted to cry and cry now :'(

gosh...it's june already..time moving so fast huh?

And because i

t's

june so it's MY BIRTHDAY, yaaaaaaay!!! so happy that now i'm already 18th years old ( not happy 'cuz i'm so old ) :(

At first, i was thought i would be really bad birthday, full of bored some feeling, but in the end it wasn't bad at all..hehehehe :D

I can't explain much though, but at least i can say that THANK YOU SO MUCH for all my friends (uuuu love u all) ;D

And THANK YOU so much for him, who had congrats me ( i wish i can celebrate the day with you, but i know i can't ) it's really sad, i knew. But I still thanks him that he remember my birthday :D

Well...that's all for my birthday, even though there was no party at all, but still i'm happy because of him..once more i just want to said THANK YOU SO MUCH and i know i won't be with you anymore, but i wish wherever you are, whenever you are i hope you always do fine and well, it was really beautiful moment to be with you ;)

stairway to heaven Lyrics

ini lagu bener-bener bisa buat gw nangiiis kejeer...huhuhu
padahal gw sendiri ga ngerti apa artinya..
untung gw searching ke om gugel dulu buat nyari english translate nya :D

ini lyric lagunya :

Bogoshipda (I Miss You Dearly)
Singer: Kim Bom Su

Amoori kidaryuhdo nan motka
Babochuhrum oolko inneun (nuh)nuh-yi kyuhte
Sangchuhman jooneun nareul weh moreuko kidarini
Tuhnakaran marya
(Refrain 1)
Bogoshipda, bogoshipda Irun nega miwuhjil mankeum
Oolgoshipda, nege mooreup koolko
Modoo uhptun iri dwel soo itdamyun
(Chorus)
Michil deu saranghetun ki-uhgi
Choo-uhk deuri nuhreul chatko itjiman
Deoh isang sarang-iran byunmyung eh
Nuhreul kadool soo uhp suh.
Iru hmyunan dwejiman.
Joogeul mankeum bolgoshipda.
(Instrumental)
(Refrain 2)
Bogoshipda, bogoshipda
Irun nega miwuhjil mankeum
Mitkoshipda, orheun kirirago.
Nuhreul wihe duhnayaman handago.
(Repeat Chorus)
Joogeul mankeum mitkoshipda.

hellooooo akhirnyaa gw ngeblo lg..hehehe
setelah skian lama ga ngbloog gr" UN nii..hehehe

oiyaaaa..gw nemu quotes" baguuus dari interneet
jadii pengen shariing ni :

For Broken Hearts :
"I can't escape the thought of you. Even in my dreams you are there. It's not fair how your gone, and how you're moving on so fast, while I am still living in the past."

"I wish i were a little girl again, because skinned knees are easier
to fix than broken hearts."

"It's hard to trust and it's hard to cry. It's hard to love and later say goodbye. But it's much harder to let go when you really want to say no. But this is life of making hearts grow"

"Sometimes I wish I had never met you because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there."

For someone who stuck in love :

"How do I say goodbye to someone I never really had? Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine? Why is it I miss someone I was never really with? And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine?"

"jika memang dia, dari awal mula dan selamanya akan tetap selalu dia, tapi jika bukan,
dari awal mula dan selamanya tidak akan pernah dia, dan pasti ada "dia" yang lain yang jauh lebih baik dari dia yang bukan."

For someone who waiting to be loved :

Don't you know that I still wait someone who don't realize that I wait him for so long.
Don't you know that I can't forget someone I really love and I don't know why.
Don't you know that I hurt really so bad because of being tired of waiting.
Don't you know...
Don't you know...
Don't you know... that someone is you?

"Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worth while, so when you are lonely, remember this is true: Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you."

For someone who wants to "move on" :


"One day you'll love me, the way I loved you. One day you'll think of me the way I thought of you. One day you'll cry for me, the way I cried for you. One day you'll want me, but I won't want you"

“You have to forgive to forget, and forget, to feel again.”


"You either let go for two reasons.... you've learned enough to want to, or you've been hurt enough you have to."

baru nemu sgini dlu..hehehe kapan" ditambah lagi deeh

the lyric...

okaaay..back to blogging again..hehehe

this time i want to share 'bout a lyric from a song that
i like recently...well, it's a bit old song..but dunno why, i kinda like it..

Only When I Sleep

The Corrs

You're only just a dreamboat
Sailing in my head
You swim my secret oceans
Of coral blue and red
Your smell is incense burning
Your touch is silken yet
It reaches through my skin
And moving from within
It clutches at my breast

But it's only when I sleep
See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe

* Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep
(It's only when I sleep)

And when I wake from slumber
Your shadow's disappear
Your breath is just a sea mist
Surrounding my body
I'm workin' through the daytime
But when it's time to rest
I'm lying in my bed
Listening to my breath
Falling from the edge
But it's only when I sleep

** See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe

[Repeat *]

*** Up to the sky
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High
In bed I lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High

It's reaching through my skin
Movin' from within
Clutches at my breasts
But it's only when I sleep

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