Feeling sumthin' Strange..

Well i just wanna share sumthin' 'bout my feelings, i don't know how i deal with my feeling, i know it's sound terrible 'cuz i had already feel it about 3 times but i still don't get it :(

At first i thought i'm okay, 'cuz I've been broken heart for 2 months..but then, about a week ago, i had this strange feelings, well not strange actually, it's

just.. i don't know i think i'm still in love with him (i know it's hard to accept)

but that makes me more confuse, 'cuz in other hand i think i'm just still in

awkward position (which is kinda bit uncomfortable being alone).

And because of that i'm so confuse right now, i don't know what i want. Well at first i want him to disappear from my life, but then i'm kinda bit miss him..

and now, when i'm re- add his BB pin, i just thought it was a bad, really bad idea, but what can i do? he already approve it.

I still remember what my friend said to me, that i'm still cared for him. But now i just..i think communicate with him was really bad idea..

GOD, i don't know what to do now, i now i miss him but i don't want him to know my feelings 'cuz i know he doesn't have same feeling like me..

i now he was already erased his feeling since we broke up, but oh God i don't know what i'm gonna do now..just wanted to cry and cry now :'(